My life’s pretty messed up right now. I don’t even know how to begin with. a lot of people might find this stuff very unusual because I’m not a blogger type of person (who cares anyway? na-inspire kc ako kay ade magnaye, nominated xa for philippine blog awards 2007,eiun) But seriously, I’m an introvert who prefers to carry the emotional garbage all by myself. Not until recently…I’ve already reached my "saturation point". One thing is certain, I know what triggers all these emotions to outburst.

I hate to admit this but, I was once a stalker to a political science major guy who never even had the chanceto know me at all. I’ve already outgrown this frustration when I was in second year (perhaps!) when I preoccupied myself with things that will deviate my attention from him (like falling inlove with an insensitive guy blah..blah..blah..well, that’s another story).

But all of a sudden, that certain *feeling haunted me again - in my dreams. He kept on appearing in my dreams with no particular reason. Am I on a delusional mode again or it’s just that his presence is already turning into a nightmare coz he’s going to graduate na? One of my fave fictional close encounters with him is yung naging super tanga daw ako tapos siya yung savior ko dun sa panaginip kong yun. Yes, parang Smallville minus the katangahan nga lang. and speaking of which, nagustuhan ko yung Smallville nung nalaman kong fave nya yun.

And so much for that stalking revelation… Next in line sa mga troubles that keep me awake all night is my undecided career path. At some point, subconsciously I want to be a political scientist  - just like him! And that’s exactly the point. He influences me in a lot of ways. And he doesn’t even know that. I’ve already asked myself a million times already, what makes him different from the rest of the guys? hindi ko nga xa kilala in the first place. I just know him by name. Friends kami sa panaginip but in reality he’s totally out of reach. So to cut this story, I’ve realized na that’s why they call such thing as dream boy/dream girl coz that person only appears in your dreams. As in literally.

"Those nights when you can’t sleep, it might be because you are awake in someone else’s dream."

Note: the word *feeling in this context doesn’t mean love, cguro admiration lang or something but definitely not love.